Discordant Tambourine

Discordant tambourine
Shiver like silver ripples
Vibrations through liquid glass.
Light sparkle above like diamond shadows
Against the white sky.
Tingling cold and new as the snow
Foreshadowed in your icy wind
That scalds against my weary skin
Slashes at my weeping eyes and cries its lonely lament
To the trembling trees.

Beat your resonating melody
Deep within my bones.
Pulse, merry calamity within my breast.
Clang the melancholy song to the marrow of my soul
Then rise up again, up again
Like a phoenix on this winter night.

No Condemnation

No condemnation for the self-condemned
No scourge and cross waiting for me
What I deserve You've already taken
What grace unimaginable You cause my eyes to see

Breathe into me new life again
Help me remember the price that You paid
And carry my cross in Your nail-pierced footsteps
Knowing every moment of guilt on You was laid

Vulnerability

My heart bleeds, but still beats
The voice in my head echoes, but cannot scream
The soft under-side of my soul is exposed, but wants only to curl up and hide
What can I not share with You
That is not already known?
I try to pull the skies down around me
To make me a target much too small
Covered by an infinite blanket, numbness a disguising wall
I am too tired, too weak, to vulnerable for this fight
I cannot go on without Your rest
So enfold me in Your arms of grace
And tell me what You know is best

Comfort

I will sleep
Ever in the arms of grace
I will remain here against the side that bled
I will sing
Forever of Your love
And stay beneath the wings that brush my head

A shelter for the heart that's broken
A resting place for me when I am weak
A quiet place of company
When I feel the most alone

You Are The God/When I Am Weak

(two worship choruses)

You Are The God

To You I write a song
I'll sing it all day long
How much I love You so
I want to let You know

You are the God who saved me
You are the God who raised me
You are the watcher
Who patiently guides me in the night

You are my great Redeemer
Counselor, teacher and friend
You covered my very beginning
You'll cover my very end

(REPEAT)

When I am Weak

When I am weak
You are strong
When I am weary
Amazing grace You provide
For every heartache
And every trial
You wipe the tears from my eyes

Oh God, how amazing
How amazing You are!

When no one else can see me
When no one else can know
You see right through my defenses
And tell me You love me so

God how amazing
How amazing You are!

Written: Sept. 2nd, 2010