Requiem Of Grief

Requiem Of Grief

Pay and give heed to this enchanted dance

This circle of shadow, of flame

Of lotus blossom, floating petals

Flicker and spin in blue moon-bathed shadows.

To the earth as rich and rare

A moment of true delight

Burst green and fresh and fragrant

Trust, you will sway the breeze

Such a fragile, frail, tragic thing

Love does not leave you whole, but broken

Broken as the stars

As fiery sparks leap up to their lofty heights

Grasping with fingers made of smoke

Curling and smoldering

Dying to ash

Crumbles and lies still…

The tears of dreams spent, wasted

Forgotten as a dying breath

Of summer air

Long gone, never to be reclaimed

What once was

Was longed for like sweet innocence

Pure of thought, of form and substance

Of lonely nights and restless dreams

Arms that could not be found

Embrace unmet

No pardon

No pardon for glory or for ideals

The way life should have been

Mixed skies and morning light

Pale clouds against the sunrise

I knew and did not know

Had seen but could not realize

Could not recover

But only taste the bitterness of goodbye

Hello, goodbye

Goodbye for another forever

Goodbye my might have been and never was

The protector left me unprotected

For this most deepest of pains

Emptiness like deep waters

Which no one and nothing can fill

Tasted the misty breath of water

Only to be drained even more dry than before

Cracking the inner skin already desiccated

How much more can these dry wounds bleed

They weep dry tears

As sand trickles down a dune, its grainy tears

Falls like water over a cliff

Into endless nothing

Waterfalls in the dark

No one sees, no one knows

Only I can feel

Without its inexorable press of nothingness

Against the innermost sensitive wells of my soul

I wouldn’t know what to be

Where I’ve come from

And where life would go

Where joy would be long

If not for sorrow

Where renewal would be

If not for grievous loss

Oh jealous requiem of grief

You sing your parting symphony with chords that continue

That only strengthen with time

Your predatory instinct for survival steals away joy

Makes memories bitter-sweet

Yesterdays silver shadows reach long

Dare to dream the insufferable night away

It is pretense to ignore

More damaging to delay

What grieves and refines our soul

When pain steals our breath away

Written: March 17th & 18th, 2011