Was it as sad as it might have been?
Did you regret for more than just a moment
Do you still remember when?
I think my vision of you was just a dream
A person I had known from long ago
A part you couldn't play forever it seems
So God please tell me why
Why do You give to take away?
I know it's Your right
But when it happens, what can I say?
I don't understand Your ways
You're far beyond my comprehension
You're too big for my little mind
Yet You've paid for my redemption
Your ways are not my ways
Your thought are not my thoughts
But for just a moment...
Could You bend down to me?
Oh God of mercy and grace
Please show understanding on Your face
And listen to my cry
And tell me why I have to die
To truly live
Am I as forgiving
As You have called me to be?
Do I speak with my mouth only
Yet refuse to fully be?
Do You still know me?
Are You still here when I fall?
I think my vision of You is just a little thing
All that I can understand and whatever You bring
Why can't I refuse to make my own side of You?
To live and praise as wholly this day
As when things are going my way
Why can't my arms reach
As high as the sky You've made
To be as close to You now
As though I had stayed
Right where You've wanted me
Please close this distance
I can't run if I fall
I cannot stand on my feet at all
So lift me near
Please forgive my tears...
Is this daily life as strange
As I have made it to be?
The vision I have of You
Is blurred by my own reality
The more I think I know of You
The more questions I must ask
And the answers are that more must be given of me
I try so hard I make myself fail
I get so tired of listening
The sound of my own wails
I'm tired of fighting me as well as You
So Lord please tell me what it is that I should do
Your death brought life to me
You rose to set me free
So please break these chains of insecurity
And allow me to truly see
That You adore me
Just as I am, this broken thing
Who cannot see what's right in front of me
Who cannot hear Your voice for I am drowning You see
Who do You want me to be?
Please forgive me
And teach me to say 'Goodbye'
