In My Life Lord

In my life
I've seen you move mountains
That I did not even know were there
I've seen walls come tumbling down
That I didn't even know I'd erected
And watched you build something new, and stronger with the rubble remaining

I've seen you smile in a summer sky
Blink quietly to me to show your pride in the fireflies winking lights
In my life, you've loved me more
Than I have ever understood

In my life, you've given me the butterflies
To show me a hint of the beauty and freedom You can create in me
And also the tears that I cry, rain on my windowpane
To show me how pain cleanses my wounds
How time can instigate healing

You've allowed me to know love
To know family
And to understand again as I did as a child
And then had forgotten out of a willful, jaded heart
How allowing them to love and laugh with me
Can heal the emptiness left from those I've lost
How I need them, and even the pain of losing them sometimes
To truly feel alive
Even when the hurt is so strong it must make me weary as though dead

You've never forgotten me, or been too busy to hear me
Never gotten disgusted by my wearisome ways
Never turned me away when I called for You
Or dropped me when I feared that I would fall
You never let go when I asked You to hold me
And never let me run completely away
When I tried to escape a love I didn't deserve

Be with me now Lord
As You were then
When all we had was each other
When all I could do was cling to You
As the life-raft You really are
Help me to believe
That you will NEVER forget or abandon me
And that to You alone
I will never have to say,
'Goodbye.'

Written: 03-29-2010
(Monday Night)