Embrace

I'm bleeding from the inside out
Tears red as crimson
Scarring my heart like jagged acid streaks
Lightning bolts and broken arrows
Trickling like fallen stars
The shatter of this crystal heart
Broken into a thousand pieces
That snag, pull, and tear at my soul

Is it divine indifference
Or perhaps permissiveness
Or selfish drowning in my own sorrow?
Where are you yesterday?
As uncertain as you were then, I would embrace you now
To this lost today

But as I look up into the first clear night of spring
The stars wink like Your shared tears
Etched in diamonds that catch in the corner of Your eyes
The heavens enfold me like Your mighty arms
And there I can cry
And I know You will hear
I cry out like David of old, knowing my Father will hear me
Will deliver me, and heal the damage
Turn the pain into joy in the morning

Take me to a place of muted colors
And only Your voice
Only your healing flooding my mind
Cleansing my blood from the disease of pain
A sickness of the heart that plagues me daily

Much will change in my life
But You, Oh Lord, will remain the same
Give me the courage to hold tightly to my Rock of refuge
Help me to get lost only in Your eyes
Never lost to Your omnipresent heart

Embrace like a kiss of forgiveness
Understanding a gentle touch to the cheek
No one will ever know me like You
Almighty, invincible, omnipotent God
Holy flame with a Father's heart