Losing You

I don't want to lose you
I don't want to let go
But your smile is acid
Your eyes are fire
That consume me
They consume me...

I don't want to live
Without your presence
Don't want to laugh
When we're in pain
What lasted for a moment
Lasts now for a life-time

Its too hard to forget
But so hard to remember
A memory, a ghost of the past
That lingers...you linger...
In the songs that I sing, the words that I write
Your finger-print is on my deepest thoughts
Your influence guides my every action
You were, you are... or you were?
I can't separate you from now, from then, from... always and ever
Forever... you are near.

Note: This is written just for the unexplainable emotions of trying to go on after losing someone you held very dear. Ever broken up with someone you'd been with for a long time, that knew you, that made you believe, someone that caused you to risk and to trust once again? Nanny (my grandmother) was like that. She was so dear.