Conversations

Note: I had a conversation with God Wednesday morning and while I won't post all of it here, I found that looking back through and picking out parts of it that are less specific is actually more helpful.  Some of it I think my friends might be happy to hear - at least the parts about the spiritual fascination.  I'm fighting off some sort of illness I think which has made me very tired, but I feel like I still should put something down here.  Actually, I'm beginning to wonder if my attempts to progress in several areas and the good fellowship with God and church family is WHY I'm feeling so weird...that unseen world fights back hard sometimes.  
I was honored to be at a prayer meeting that same night that God and I spoke and there were some very beautiful people there and lovely things that were said.  It was pretty cool.  I have been trying to be more vocal (as in, with my audible voice), but I'm not sure how well I'm succeeding.  Anyway, I'll put down a few thoughts beginning with the selected parts of my 'conversation'.  To me, writing can be a form of prayer and certainly was in this case.




Me: "Through the most recent chapter of my journey...You've been there."
"I should come to You always for intimate discourse."
"You are sovereign, patient, gracious, merciful, and really do have only the best for me in mind.  Please help me to remember that in days and years to come."

God:  "I think that what you were thinking about (earlier) was good and right.  You are not fascinated so much with the darkness of the supernatural as the supernatural world itself.  So in those times where the darkness seems more attractive to focus on, it should be a conscious decision on your part to turn your attention back to the 'light'.  Its not always a temptation...but be vigilant, alert, mindful of your thoughts and attentions...."

"I have a purpose for everything, even when you don't listen to me.... Neither you or anyone else has the power to derail my plan whatever the mistakes.  You give yourself too much power sometimes."

There was a quote that was given at the prayer meeting (several actually, but this was I found very special) that really touched me.  It's from Richard Foster.  "If we genuinely love people, we desire for them far more than it is within our power to give, and that will cause us to pray.  The inner sense of compassion is one of the clearest indications from the Lord that this is a prayer project for you."