Disillusioned Sky

Sometimes looking up does not help

Ideals do not help when they are cracked and worn themselves

And love is like a broken sky that scatters like black butterflies when the wind blows too hard

And it, and all that once meant 'together' falls apart like so many shattered stars

White and black and glistening with unresolved tears

Disillusioned hope and unsatisfied dreams

One would think that after so many great chances, so much disenchantment

And lies that reveal themselves as truths, truths revealing themselves as lies

That a heart can only grow so jaded from them before it stops believing...

And yet I have still believed...

Still believed and am emptied all over again

Like a broken statue fallen on its knees

Pressing my face willfully into the dirt I breathe

Though breathing cracks my insides to match the fractures without

Tears apart seams too many times mended

Too often re-torn apart

My fingers play with the frayed red stitching as of blood ever-trickling

That has never fully dried

Wounds too old and deep to heal with any amount of time

Scars can run deeper than veins of gold

Less shiny, but just as costly to a heart-sick soul

Weariness and pensiveness collide in a frustrated dance of unending conflict

Why, oh why, do I ever try to look past the stains of regret

That grow ever stronger through the years

More deeply rooted, more a part of what I am

As chiseled into my being as the fingers that were wrought of stone

The heart of flesh so jealousy guarded, far too often encased in cold silence

Too weak to break free from its stone-mountings

Moored in the darkness of some unseen night

And this at least I cling to, this at least I still try

To remain a part of the promise that keeps breathing

That keeps vain hope alive...

What chance is there for these broken wings of despair to right and to one day fly?

I don't know... I don't know...

And what dreams...

What dreams may erstwhile fly...

Author's Note: No, I don't own the pictures.  Each one has the copyright info. though I believe...